how the love songs always remind you bout her.

last paper tmr.
hope i can pull it off.
paper was chick's leg today.
i breezed it thru.
had no problems with the questions or whatsoever.

and oh,
she didnt read out that dedication anyway.
ahh. read or not, makes no difference in my life.

just discovered something.
hah.
to think i thot she wld cherish.
i was soooooo wrong.
oh wells.
efforts SO appreciated.

gonna be lonely tonight.
oh wait, wasnt i everynight?
hmmms.

*so much for My Happy Ending.

swallowing my pride till it chokes.

the paper was ok for today.
didnt manage to catch some sleep thou.
the paper was 20pages thick and 2hrs long.

got home right after the paper.
wanted to study but i just cldnt get into the mood.
so i decided to slack instead. =D
fave past time.

bitched with per.
shiok pls.
i swear she's sucha bitch.
we both are. =D

i'm having headaches every now and then.
i'm dying soon.
i dont feel well.
every part of me feels sick.
*frowns

oh how greatttttt. mum just came in and told me that she's taking 20bucks off my allowance. godddammit? she fucking ruin my plans. she deprived me from my allowance during the hols, and now she wants to take off 20bucks?! DAMN YOU.

yes yes i know we aint rich. but 20!? WTF. THATS ALOT YOU KNOW. HAH. I DONT CARE. imma steal from you every now and then. arghhhhh!

ok i'm godddamn pissed now. so i've to save for a longer time and skip more meals. #%^@%@#$!@#?@#$?#%?$?^?$!?$?#@$@?^?%@$?@#$?
*bangs head on wall.

eyes too pure for death.

school tomorrow and i totally detest the idea of sitting in the hall, having my chem paper infront of me and not knowing what the answers are. i hate. i rather spend time taking care of Her or bitching with my bitches. lucky the next paper is CHEENA not physics. else i dont know how am i going to survive this whole mid-year thang. i really need a dose of my stacey, or maybe a dozen. i dont know. just cant get enough of her.

she's down. over her cousin's dog. how i wish i could be there to give her a hug or somethang. baby you know i do care ok? pls be fine. i hope yer fever goes away.

TO FEVER: pls leave my baby and come to me. i will love you and feed you with ice. =D

there's no escaping your love,
so just settle down in mine.

i'm having a headache. i'm suppose to get dinner for myself yet i'm too lazy to get my ass outta my com chair, get changed, wear my slippers, and walk to the KPT down a few blocks from my comfy womfy nest. *grumbles.

ok what shud i eat? its so pathetic isnt it? sighs. how i wish to food would just POOFFF infront of me and i can start gobbling. i'm sick. i'm really sick. i'm down with MMBS. someone help me. *mutters

i aint that hard to comprehend.
what i want was simple.
you.

i may be harsh on my words sometimes.
blabbering bout leaving you.
but hell no.
you know i dont mean a shitt bout that.

i love you.


ever since
I saw yer face
Nothing in my life has been the same
I walk around just sayin' yer name
Without you my world would end, yeah
I searched around this whole damn place
And everthing says you werent meant to be
my girlfriend.

i'm just a nosey parker.
now i finally realise.

at the end of the day,
she's the one you go to.
not me.
i wasnt wrong.
i'm truly redundant.

i cldnt hold back the tears when you left just like that.
i'm tired yet i cld not let go.

things was going fine.
yet again...

she will be the one,
who loves you for who you are.
not me.

the things we once shared.
the kisses, the hugs, the intimacy, the trust, the faith.
i dont know where had they all went.

maybe this love was wrong to start off with.
you're right.
we aint meant to be.

i dont need anyone to judge this love.
not even you.
i know its true.
thats enuff.

*grins.
i did this picture and i think its fucking nice.

click here to see it.

i wonder where you got that ability from.
the ability to make me smile everytime i'm down.

the ability to make the dark clouds go away, and the sun to shine again.

true,
you're one in a million.
and i would do anything just to keep you by myside.

i miss you.
and i love you.

*thats why i love you

and this is cute too!
i bet she will love it.
bahhh.

omg! aint this cuteee?
=D
i want it!
someone get it for meeeeee!
*JUMPS ARD

oh anyway, its a jubjub.
hehe

i feel stupid all of a sudden.
i dont seem to know the truth anymore.
everything seems so fake.

you said it was there long ago.
but the date says 30th May.
so whats the true?
you tell me.

i dont wanna think so much either.
pls, make some sense will ya?

i'm starting to hate everything around me.
i know i aint anyone to interfere.
i aint anyone to care bout yer life.
30th May,
we're alr over arent we?
you've every right to be with someone else.

ok. then so be it.
imma break down if i carry on thinking and try to make sense outta everything.

*betrayal

you know you create miracles in my life. i fucking love you like there's no tomorrow.

suddenly i'm all filled with jealousy.
so much that its drowning me.

i know i aint suppose to feel this way.
just kill me.

*sentences not suppose to read, words not suppose to hear.

the way you lie on me.

oh yes yes yes.
there's a major bitching session later and i cant wait!
i think we shud just set a particular time and all of us can fucking bitch online.
hahaha!

darling's thinking our new blog's name.
i seriously dont think we shud be called the 4 toilets like what korkor suggested.
or the 4 kopi-tiams. (my suggestion)
haha.
something more intelligent pls!

ok great.
so now i'm fucking missing her like hell.
i really wanna spend more time with her.
dont think i can do so after sch reopens.

i left all my chem notes in sch.
two more days to chem paper.
i think it wld be a miracle if i pass.
cos i NEVER pass chem.
haha!

ok.
shall go bitch with korkor now.
wheeee!

*there's someone here who wants to spend her life with you.

staceying - my new found hobby.

you just made me smile.
and i love the way you do the things you do.

i love the jealousy.
i love the tantrums.
i love the way you grumble.
i love the way you kooks kooks baby.
i love everything bout you.

yes.
and i wont hang up so fast alr alryts?
i cant wait to hear what you wanna say.

you're just so special,
no words can describe.
truly,
one in a million billion.

*the way you make me fall in love with you.

think she's hot? then you haven't seen my girl.

hmms hmms!
went sentosa-ing today!
was great fun i swear.
but a different kind of fun that i dont know how to put words on.
there's was just something missing from everything.
you know who you are.
and you know you're missing.

haha.
we buried per and made a mermaid outta her.
and fox was like making her own breast.
lol.
picture this!
mermaid with a dick!
bahahhaha!

bitching session was superb!!
haven't been bitching this much for SO LONG.
thanks maye harney, yx, korkor, per and fox.
you guys made my life more colourful!
you guys are such BITCHES.
AND I SWEAR I LOVE ALL OF YOU.
=D

today was really great,
just missing her too much that i think i kept hearing my phone ring.
hallucination!
oh man. this is the end of me.
i swear i heard it even after i put my phone on silent.
dammit.

i guess thats how much you can miss someone?
its scary.

that very moment, i knew you was the one.

the pain sometimes get abit over-excruciating.
but i think i still can hang on.
yes, for whatever i believe in.

*want the truth? find it in my eyes.

how i fit imperfectly into yer life.

i guess now its the time i start seeing the real thing.
no doubt.
i cant fit into yer life like how i used to anymore.
not say life,
even yer blog.
yes, i get the hints.

i dont wanna be an irritating pest.
i will leave you alone.
if thats what makes you a happier person.

i would do anything for you.
up to you to believe.

*the words that aint for me.

if only she could be as encouraging when i'm in pain. she just choose to ignore me coz she couldnt find the right words to say. honestly, it'll only make me feel worst. think about it. i need you here.

everything comes in a package. including me.

ok dammit
i miss my branch.
and i'm worried bout her.
so much.
it hurts seeing her skirt so short.
i swear.
pls darling,
dont do that to yer twig again.

today was great.
we had fun teasing each other im sure.
but escalator trips can never be as fun as before without her lying on me.
i know.
lets take thgs step by step.

and yes.
its in a vase now.
safe and secure.
i knew you wld treat it good.
its the first rose from me to you anyway.
*smiles.

i can see things slowly improving.
but i'm worried once after sch starts,
i can never spend as much time with you again.
i'm worried.
really.

yore-ee says she misses you.
and her daddie misses you too.

*you colour my life.

didnt really do anythg special ytd.
but i did sth for the first time in my life.
i guess she didnt know,
thats why she didnt even mention bout it.
asif Linkin Park is more impt.
bahhs.
pardon me.

i wonder how is it.
shud be dead by now i guess.
or maybe even in the trashbin.
haha.

sarcastic me.
i like.

i wont deny that i miss her.
but im still kinda perturbed by the fact that she moved away from my hands.
ok i know.
friends right?
yah.
gimmie a break.

and to this irritating, dont-know-how-to-automatic, tk-everything-for-granted bitch,
pls be discreet and keep yer dirty hands off my girl.
hate pple like you who go round putting yer hands around pple's waist and act asif their yours.
no no no.
you can hug anyone, i dont care.
but just not my girl.
she's mine. geddit?
damn YOU.
go get a face transplant before YOU decide to rival against ME.
else,
just sit one corner and count ants ok?

*the reason behind

i'm tired.
i'll blog tomorrow.

i'll try to understand.
i'll always be here.

ilu.

she's someone i cant get enough of.

just wish i cld make some sense outta what she's doing.
just wish the reason aint love or interest.
just wish, she cld be right here beside me.

i wanna give you all.
all that you never had.
i wanna love you.
love you like there's no tomorrow.

i cldnt make myself leave.
not a reason valid enuff.
you're the reason.
the reason behind all this determination and perseverance.

you aint just a bypasser.
you're my harbour.
aint a pier.

give us a chance to kiss and make up.
you know there aint no one else but you.

yes baby,
i love you.
with every ounce of what i am.

*ilu

cut my head off and see the blood spill.

ok.
now i'm fucking down with pms.
dammit.
this sucks. like totally.
my tolerance level is at its lowest,
and the slightest irritation can trigger off major disaster.

dammit.
damn damn damn.
i hate all this.

i hate pple calling me just to sing over the phone.
nothing better to do huh?
call mediacorp and sing lah!
wtf.

i hate pple who dont reply my msgs.
asif everythg's gonna be ok.
shit you ok.
damn u.

i hate my mum.
she thinks she's what.
talk to my ass lah.

i hate.
stop asking me to help you with your blog.
its YOUR blog isnt it?
fuck.

now everyone just get off my back before i start yelling yer heads off yer shoulders.
lemme repeat,
DONT MESS WITH ME.

asif shouting gets yer point across.

yeah.
i've nthg much to say.
thats why i aint blogging.

school's starting in 7 days for me.
stress.
having chem paper at the first day.
god knows how the hell am i suppose to pass it.

yeah.
gimme some ions, neutrons, protons and electrons.
oh no.
they dont use that now.
what they teach now is quantum number, quantum shell, subshell and obitals.
bahhhhs.
gimme a break!

sighs.
thgs aint working again.
god dammit.
i dont fucking mean a thing.
screwed.

*dont think you know it all.

Every night I hear you cry
Don't you wanna tell me why
I'm afraid the way i cannot live without you
Maybe I misunderstand
But when I reach and touch your hand
I can't feel you anymore
You seem a million miles away from me tonight
Baby but I'm right beside you

Wherever so hard to say
Whatever makes you turn away
Can't be any words that I imagine
You gotta tell me what you need from me
To hold you close or set you free
Cause I just wanna see your smile again
But I can't help you if you keep me in the dark
Open up your breaking heart and

Talk to me
That's what my love is here for
Can't stand to see
Those tears in your eyes
I'll do anything it takes to make it right
Should I hold you close or set you free to fly?
Baby
Talk to me
Even if it's just to say good-bye

I don't know how to ease the pain you're going through
Baby, tell me what to do.

to my branch.

Never even thought to cry
When I heard you say good-bye
Never said where you were going
There's no laughter in the air
Only silence everywhere

And so much left unspoken
Since you've been gone
I haven't been the same
I wish that I could see
Who's to blame

Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life without you?

Was I lost in you and me
To the point I couldn't see
That what we had was dying
Now it's all that I can do
To see photographs of you
And stop myself from cryin'
I should learn to live without your love
Got so many memories, but it's not enough

I feel helpless and oh so all alone
Ooh Like I've never felt before
You made me feel alive
But I don't remember what it's like anymore

What if you have only 29hrs left to live now?

walked around alone today.
was happily window shopping.
i saw yore-ee.
but i didnt get it cos i realised i didnt have enuff cash on me.
*curses.
imma get it soon.

walked past OP.
slippers.
sighs.

and i realised that OPkids' models have alienated arms.
they are like extra long?
*gives THAT look. (LOL)

then,
some quote came into my mind like outta the blue.
treat your lover like its the last day of your life everyday.
hah.
noddds*
i fucking agree.

oh. did i just hear "STACEY" on the radio?
eh? i think i heard it twice alr.
once ytd and once today.
har. this is farneh.

she told me its true.
i not happy what!
haha.
man.
she's got a way with me.
i surrender. =D

OH.
did i mention bout my beloved son and daughter-in-law today?
LOL.
COMICAL PLS.
and there was germaine sitting beside me happily critising pple's teeth when she forget her toothbrush.
HA HA HA.
and check out the way she orders OFF THE MENU.
HILARIOUS.
like some aunties from the kopi-tiam.
bahahas.
nique knows what i'm refering to and i'm sure she agrees.
hor son?
*POINTS AT GERMAINE AND LAUGHS.

and "ORH-LULU",
i'm sorry i cheated you.
LOL. well i got much traumatising from you too.
now its fair.
=D
anyway, go out again some other time?
pls stop peeling yer nails.
help me say hello to the layers from yer stomach.
=D

and to you,
thanks for spending that 1½ hrs with me.
you dont know how much that meant to me.
yes, its short, but i'm sure we had fun. (if i did not have to frown and re-fold my sleeves so god-knows-how-many-times.)
you'll always be a part of me.
i love you.

*i'll take you for a ride, the ride of yer life.

heh.
time to blog.

changed my template.
=D

had a short talk with her.
glad that thgs are gradually getting better.
but i wonder why her dinner so long haven finish?
like its 1:53 alr and i'm still waiting for her call.
maybe she isnt calling afterall.
not the first time.

i'm kinda tired.
struggling to keep my eyes open.
guess imma sleep after this entry.

i'm still kinda disturbed.
something wants to climb outta my screen and flatten me.
this is no good.
hah.

alrites.
nthg to say anymore.

*DUMdeedum

heh!
guess wot!
my fave fave fave DJ carrie chong blah blah just read out my dedication on radio!!!
wooohooo!
like wow? u know wow? W-O-W ?! BAHAHA.
and i was like so excited!
i went like, "eh? very familiar hor!"
then i realised it was from meeee!
woohoo!
so happy.
clapps.
=DDDD


and if u guys wanna know what was read out,
then come ask me!
but no worries,
i added u guys into the dedication alr.
but i specially mentioned someone.
hehe!


i'm a happy girl today!


1)i played WOF with korkor and i won, (and lost la.)


2)i played minesweeper and bejewelled with qiaoy.


3)i played GB with her for 2hrs.


4)i talked to huiwen on irc
she confided in me,
i left an entry for her on her demand.


5) cheryl harnnnneyyy called me,
we talked beside her washing machine, (LOL)


6) carrie chong blah blah read out my dedication!
wah. best achievement ever. lol. she read out as professional
milkers so all 5 cow milkers are included! HEH!


7) she made me happy. =)


* it just had to be You and Me.

TO: TAN HUIWEN


ok ok.
5mins.
i know i know.
and now TAN HUIWEN demands recognition too.
LOL pls.


ahhhh...
what shud i say?


orh okok.
huiwen is a v v v v v v nice person.
bestest friend in the world wide world.
darlingiest confident i have.
closest buddy.
prettiest darling and she can participate in beauty contest. (LOL)
enuff not?
LOL.


ok la.
i'm just glad that she's always here for me when i needed her.
a friend i will always love.
=D

wheeeeeeee.
i'm a happy fella today.
she's really gooood to me,
at least she coaxes me.
heh!


alryties,
i'm off to play GB with her alr.
=D


*the sunshine after rain.

just had a quarrel with mom.
hah. i really wonder how much more longer can i stand all this shit.


and her?
she's having fun tagging someone else.
hah.
i dont know,
she's just drifting further and further away.

this is just human nature.
if you cant accept me for what i am,
then too bad.


if you cant see,
i've been trying very hard to improve the situation btwn us.


yer just blind,
too blind.


words cant go into yer head.
you always think that you're right.
you refuse to listen.
you refuse to change.


we aint gonna work anythg out this way.
but i know u dont want to either.


i'll leave us in yer hands.
choose what u wanna do with it.

i fell so hard this time. so hard that its almost impossible for me to get up again. i thought bout the thgs we went thru, and how we came by. its a long way, and i wont deny that even this very moment, i'm still head over heels for you. i read the fridae profile. its was hurtful. and i saw somethg that i dont wanna see. i dont know what to say. its was hard to believe my own eyes.


i can no longer make sense. if you were with her, why didnt you let me know? why are u still jealous over the names and people? why the signs? are those all lies? just lies to lead me on over and over again? i dont understand. none of these make sense, neither do they give clues to yer actions.


how i wish someone could tell me the way to go. cos i can no longer see where am i heading to. what are we now? if we were just friends, then dont drop the lil hints that you are still jealous. or maybe i'm just over sensitive. maybe you dont give a damn at all.


everythg is draining me up. thou i dont cry as much, but the pain from previous experiences havent subside yet. i was always left alone to cry, to wallow in self-pity. who will come to pick me up? no doubt, i wish it was you.


i spent my life loving you. loving you with every bit of who i am and what i am. i regret, i hate the way thgs are right now. many times, i wish thgs werent the way they are, i wish they wld be more perfect. that we were still tgt. that the unhappy memories wld just poof and disappear.


i reassured myself over and over again with your words. i still remember you said "if we go thru somethg tgt, the r/s wld be stronger." yes. i agree. both hands. but that doesnt mean we have to keep going thru them do we?


i dont know myself. i find myself wanting yer love over and over again. i'm fooling myself. the words i say bout ur not loving me, bout you moving on, i dont mean it. and you know it. deep down, there's this insatiable craving/urge for you. but i didnt let you know.


if you're really someelse's already, then all that i've said above wld be in vain. but nevertheless i still wanna let you know, that i love you. it wld be hard to get over you, get over our love. cos till this very moment, i still see you as the one.


but no matter how hard, i wld try to move on with life, if that promises you happiness. i wld do anythg within my power for you. yes, just for you. no matter who you're with now, i give you my blessings. i hope you'll be a much happier person with her in yer life.


i lost, cos i cldnt make you happy. but she can. and as long as you are happy, the pain dont matter anymore. please, promise me you'll be happy without me. then i can leave in peace.


*you take the smiles, and i'll take the tears.

i deleted the shared blog.
and i've made the neccessary changes to my everythg.
so pple who reads the shared blog,
dont bother to anymore.
nobody blogs there anyway.


ok.
all has been said and done.
i hope no one asks me again bout her anymore.
everythg has come to an end.
and thats it.
nuff said.

HAHA.
LOOK WHO'S TALKING.
YUCKS.

today's the third day she went away.
and i've been trying v.hard to divert my attention.


i miss her,
all the time.


i spend my time mostly thinking of her.
wondering if she misses me too.


but i shldnt think so much i guess.
moreover, she will be back soon.


*when every breath i take, i can almost breathe You

i found this line somewhere in my old entries.
i still mean it thou.
nthg expires,
including my love for you.
yes. true.
you aint gonna get it now.
but someday, you will.
i have the faith.


and if you wld,
tk some time off and recall bout the past,
everythg's still vivid in my mind.
i hope it applies for yours too.


*when i say i love you, its still only for your ears.

KC & JoJo - All My Life



I'm So Glad...
I Will Never Find Another Lover
Sweeter Than You
Sweeter Than You
And I Will Never Find Another Lover
More Precious Than You
More Precious Than You
Girl You Are..
Close To Me You're Like My Mother,
Close To Me You're Like My Father,
Close To Me You're Like My Sister,
Close To Me You're Like My Brother
And You Are The Only One My Everything
And For You This Song I Sing....


All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too


I'd Send You All That I'm Thinking Of........Baby


Said I Promise To Never Fall In Love With A Stranger
You're All I'm Thinking Of
I Praise The Lord Above
For Sending Me Your Love
I Cherish Every Hug
I Really Love You


All My Life (Ohhhh..Baby, Baby)
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I...That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me


You're All That I Ever Know,
When You Smile All My Face Always Seems To Glow,
You Turn My Life Around,
You Pick Me Up When I Was Down,
You're All That I Ever Know,
When You Smile My Face Glow
You Pick Me Up When I Was Down
Say...You're All That I Ever Know
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Pick Me Up When I Was Down
And I Hope That You
Feel The Same Way Too
Yes I Pray That You Do Love Me Too


And All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too


All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I ..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too


(Fading)
And All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God That I...That I Finally Found You.....

ok ok.
my ex bitch demands some serious recognition here.
lol.
orh la orh la.
special super duper thanks to you ok?
*pats u darn hard on ur back.
=D

you told me that a picture wldnt mean anythg,
yet i'm bloated with jealousy everytime i see the picture.
picture for you and her,
instead of you and i.


i get so jealous that i need to vent out the anger on someone,
someway, or somehow.
thats why the attitude.
but after a peroid of cooling down,
the jealousy distinguishes everytime i think bout the times you and i once shared.


you would always say that we are just friends.
but you are more then a friend to me.
and you should have known that by now.


bit-lipped,
i told you the picture was sweet,
but behind the facade was a broken heart
a heart hoping it's love would return


i want you to entice me with your enchanting eyes,
i want those luscious lips to be on mine,
i want you all for myself.
selfish as i am,
it's all because i love you


with everything that i am,
i'm praying that you'll one day be mine again,
no matter how long it may take,
how hard it may be.


more than ever,
i wanna hear you say you'll stay.
i'll never grip you too tight again,
i'll never let you down.
i promise you forever,
along with my heart and soul.
never would i wanna even dream of being apart from you.



i love you this much*

ok ok.
comment box's up.
=D
do what you guys deem fit kies?
lol.
so fun.


*boinks away


//you make beautiful music.

ok i dont know why iam into M&Ms.
but..
its fun!
*chuckles.


my fave M&Ms character





and and and,
i made this maself!
*grins.





wheeeeeee!
so fun.
*prances ard.
and i miss her.
=D

i read up one this thg.
*points up.
she likes it.
=D
(move to the left to see bag contents)


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i even know the nutritional info.
but i aint gonna put it up lah.
hehe.
=DD


//yes. doing anythg and everythg for you

Thinking about it make me feel weird
Do I hate or do I fear?
Full of doubts as I see the images
Can anyone tell me some of the chances?
Lost within-like I always am
Smile consealed-I hurt but I pretend
Screwing is what seem to be my nature
Living a life of pain and torture
Hope inside still live
but soul inside drift
I found me waiting for perfection again
Fate always like to hunt; it's too damned
My self-confident is on the ground
Sighing toward my problems; I am so downed
I just want to go back to those days-
Was so perfect; was full of joys
I can't do nothing now but to stare
Feel hopeless and deal with things I can't bare.

"I'm sorry I love you"
Just worthless words
Swept to the side as if they were nothing
...As if I was nothing...


She may ask what is wrong
But never truly care about the answer
Holding me in his arms is like
Being trapped in a black obis


Can't I take back my feelings?
I just want to walk away
There is no chance for you and I
Because I feel it in my heart


At the end
There isn't harmony
Just screams of agony
With me standing alone

when...


when life really seem nthg more then somethg redundant.


when the pain is too excrutiating for me to tolerate.


when the next breath is too tough for me to breathe.


when i can no longer numb myself with everythg else.


when the words you say cut me too deep.


when everythg inside me just fall apart.




i just hope for you to be here and tell me,
everythg's gonna be alright.

kinda reluctant to read whatever you'll have to say.
cos i know at the end of the day,
if nthg's bout me,
i'll get all upset again.


its v.hard to conquer this feeling inside me.
my faith's uprooted despite all efforts to keep it within me.


wo zhen de hao ai ni.
ni zhi dao ma?


yes. i know.
i shldnt indulge in self-pity.
but.. argh.


things will never be the same.
dont you understand?
we can never turn back time.
so how was i suppose to make you feel the same again?


the reason to inhale once more has lost its significance.
everythg's running low.


now tell me,
where do i get the courage to love again.
and how do i get the faith back.


//so let me hold you.

Over and over again, You're still the one despite all the pain.


i know at times i have not been the best,
and there were times where i have failed your tests.
there were days when you were oh-so alone,
a couple of sad times with no-one's fault but my own.

i would give you anything i can, anything at all,
i wish i could be there, to catch every tear that might fall.
i wish that forever wasn't just a word you say.
i love you, baby, so please don't go away.

i may not be your knight in shinning armor, as you can see,
but only for you, i am being the best that i can be.
i love you more than you'll ever know,
you never left me, you're in my heart wherever i go.

so please kiss me and hold me so tight,
encourage me, that things will be all right,
that i am not wrong for loving a person like you,
a person who makes all of my dreams come true.

a true person i am, as i always will be,
i have been very stupid lately, so please forgive me.
give me one more chance, hell, maybe two,
but whatever happens, baby i don't ever want to lose you.

yuckies gay.
cant stand the way she pouts.
and the way she poses.
lol.
get a style pls!

eeyer.
shittoes.
imma so lose my lunch.
yucks yuckS yucKS yuCKS yUCKS YUCKSSSSS!
*shivers in disgust.

*boinks out