lean back.

its raining heavily now. raining reminds of me her, my girlie. skies are dark, wonder how she's doing right now. hope d mosquitos are not feeding on her. my poor baby.. hmmm. let's just hope she's looking at d skies now. :D i miss her.

oosh, no phone calls from school today. buahaha. means i'm already half safe. gees. gotta call harn after i get my results. oh yes, i fucking miss my harn. please please please meet up soon k harney? yer kayson tay miss her cheryl lio. :D

hohos, cant wait for d outting ta come. hope it wldnt rain on that day. wld be sucha spoiler. tralalalas.

can't you see,
i'm right here with open arms.

Below expectations.

Yayyy, date with Maye, Korkor and SH on this weekend! Can't wait. Gotta ask many many pple go. Shall play myself crazy! Heehee.

After 8weeks of mental torture, I guess its time to give myself a break. Memories kept coming back ta haunt me. I want out, I really want out.

Even though promos are over, stress's still with me, all d time. I really don't know what to do. I have to be strong and face you and be brave at d same time. I have to meet expectations from pple around me. I have to live with d fear each night. Who knows? Who cares? You don't. Just stay away from me.

its been proven, my love yer abusin,
I can't understand how a man got you chosen.
I aint applyin' no pressure,
I just wanna let you know,
that I don't wanna let you go.
and I don't wanna let you leave,
can't say I didn't let you breathe.
now its time you invest in me,
cas if not then it's best you leave.

Trick or treat by star sign.

Aries pushes the others aside to get to the door first.

Taurus will only eat the finest of Swiss chocolates.

Gemini goes around the neighbourhood once, changes costumes and goes around again.

Cancer stays at home and gives candy to the other trick-or- treaters.

Leos plan their costume for months, then won't go out because someone else had the same idea.

Virgo wears a neatly-pressed suit and tells everyone they're a bookkeeper.

Libra is still standing in front of the closet trying to decide on a costume.

Scorpio isn't in it for the candy.

Sagittarius will manage to wander to the next town.

Capricorn makes a list of all the houses that give good candy and the optimal route to take.

Aquarius builds the costume out of spare flashlights and spends all night tinkering when it shorts.

Pisces skips the whole thing to compose poetry to the Moon.

hmmm. been long since i last blogged huh? gahhs, so much happenings lately, but i'm just too lazy to talk about it. what's done's done. i've nothing much to say about it either.

and yes, results are coming out soon. getting back our papers on mon and reportbook on tues. gahhs, stressed and more stress. so, guess how lousy did i do? laughs. i bet i wldnt even get promoted for nuts. gosh. this is so time wasting. if i reallyyyy didnt get promoted, i will burn down d whole school.

-laughs like a mad woman-

ahh, went bugis with jyren, mat and laopo ytd. haha, they are a really fun buncha peeps. and did i mention it's really cool chilling out at CanCafe? haha. nice place, shall frequent there. :D and yes, i got so sabo-ed playing that stupid bluff lahhhh! -wails-

but all in all, i'm so glad i got ta spend time with those lovely darlings. =)

Can somebody explain to me
Why everbody is tryin' to be livin' like a celebrity
Doin' what they see on MTV
Ice is cool but I'm looking for more
Simple things is what my heart beats for (cause that's me)
I don't ask for much (baby)
Having you is enough

cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I can't keep picturing you with her
and it hurts so bad
cause it's all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
and I can't take it and I can't shake it

I can't wait to see you
wanna see if you still got that look in your eyes
that one you had for me before we said our goodbyes
and it's a shame that we gotta spend our time being mad about the same things
over and over again
over and over again
oh but I think she's leaving
uhh man she's leaving
I don't know what else to do (can't go on not leaving you)

cause it's all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I can't keep picturing you with her
and it hurts so bad
cause it's all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
and I can't take it and I can't shake it

I remember the day you left
I remember the last breathe you took right in front of me
when you said that u would leave
I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything
but I see clearly now
and the choice I made keeps playin' in my head

oh I thinks she's leaving
uhh man she's leaving
I don't know what else to do (can't go on not lovin' u)

now that I realize
that I'm going down
from all this pain u put me through
everytime I close my eyes
I lock it down
I cant go on not lovin' you

Okay, my bitchass demanded me to blog. I swear she's one insensitive, egoisticsenilemeanbitchass. And did I mention bout her spelling? Okay it sucks. Haha!

-chants-
giro giro giro giro =P

Hmm, promos are over that's for sure, but results aint back yet. Won't get it till a week later. D teachers are going ta do moderation and d promotional exercise. Seriously hope I survive this one.

Training's gotta be tough from now on. Mon, Wed and Fri. Don't think I'm going to have any spare time for fun. Dang it. (bitchass's style)

-laughs-

I miss d beach and d sun. I miss bitching in d sea. I miss d whole gang holding on to one small pathetic Garfield float and struggles ta swim to d platform. I miss Per. I miss Maye. I miss Korkor and SH. I miss Cheryl. I miss many. =(

So what if I say? Will you be able to comprehend?

i should have known,
that i wasnt everything.

i should have known,
that i was just a fling.

i should have known,
that our love isnt a forever thing.

i should have known,
that marrying me is just joking.

i should have known it all.

but, its too late now...

Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you, and we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too

What if this is just the beginning?
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?

Isn't this the best part of breakin' up?
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too

It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful?

Here we go, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but my head's spinning

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?

High enough for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
High enough for you to pull me under
Out of this that we can't control
Baby I am dyin'

Read it, it's for you.

I don't know how to feel. I didn't see this coming at all. I rather this didn't happen. At least the past month's effort would be worthy.

I don't know who am I trying ta kid when I cant even convince myself. True, you know me better than anyone. You know me better than I do. You read me like a book. She's word-search and I'm Seventeen mag. Right?

I think I should say, "I understand what you are going thru" just to make it seem as thou I'm that understanding. Or I'm that magnanimous to present you to her with both hands. But this is true, as long as you're happy, I will be. Even if I'm just lying, at least I make the effort to?
It pains me. To see whatever we are doing to each other. To see you forcing yerself outta my life claiming that it would do me good. So what? You think it doesn't hurt? Or isit just another excuse?

Enough of that facade I've been building. Enough of that smiling mask I've been putting on. Just break me once and for all. Save me that agony. Spare me the lows, I can afford to forgo the highs.

why are you opening up a healing wound again?

i'm okay.

i'm happy.

i'm in love.

i'm feel fabulous.

i'm at the top of the world.

nothing can bring me down now.

okay, who am i trying to kid?

I hate the way I still look out for yer zodiac in d horoscope section of d papers.

Heh! Me and my nana clique has the R-syndrome in our lang. rwe rgo rike rhis. ret rme? Rah rah rah.

White chicks tmr! I know this time is for sure. It better be. I've been waiting long enough for this day. hehs.

Alrights. Bed time. Nothing much to type. Can't think. Rye rye!

Jealousy gets you NOWHERE//

There's always that one person that will always have your heart
You never see it coming cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me it's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby (you will always be my boo)

I don't know about y'all but I know about us

and It's the only way we know how to rock
I don't know about y'all but I know about us

and It's the only way we know how to rock

Do you remember girl I was the one that gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and people screamin' your name
Girl I was there and you were my baby

It started when we were younger you were mine
Now another brother's taken over but it's still in you're eyes
Even though we use to argue it's all right
I know we haven't seen each other in a while
But you will always be my boo

In d matters of d heart, there's nothing such as completely-healed wounds.

Went ta sleep with a bad headache, woke up with a worse one. -shrugs. Don't know whats wrong with me lately. Everything seems ta be wrong since 7th Sept. 6 more days to a month, and I'm still this way. Sighs. Who says time heals everything. Lies. Yucks.

ARGH, MY DAD'S A BASTARD. HE JUST SWITCHED OFF MY TV.

And my folks think I can't multi-task. Who says you can't listen to radio and chat on the comp and watch TV at the same time? It's the different senses you are using what. Bitch lah. Give them brains pls. Gosh.

`uoy evol I

just had a quarrel with my mom. she just cant give me a break can she? and i'm so used to calling her everytime after an argument with my mom. she would calm me down and make things right once again. now that she's gone, all i can do is to lock myself up and cry. sighs. alright, enough bout her.

now that promos are finally over, i can return to my bumming days again. i'm looking foward to the post-promos activities where i can spend more time with her. i mean, another her. =)

i dont know really what should i blog about. bad day, bad mood. gonna call her. hopefully she would make things right.

if given a choice, i wouldnt be calling her your name//

YER PRANK'D

Tomorrow's the last paper, But my mind has been set to "hols mood" since the day i finished my O's. And it hasn't been set back. Not even now.

Went out with mich, usha, and zy to muggg at JE since early in da morn. Saw mich's old schoolmate. She looks hot. -chuckles. Ahhs, but she screamed in the library. What a spoiler. Totally ruined my good impression of her. Tsk, nothing just comes close.

Lately, there are just too much things that will trigger my horendous laughter. And pple around me are just laughing at the way that i'm laughing. Tell me, isit THAT hilarious? Gosh.

And yes, another one on mich's list. is that lucky or what? But she doesn't seem to be appreciating this crush-on-her thingy. She's more like the what-are-boyfriends? type. Hmmm.

I'm so worn out. Don't think I'm going to muggg again for the rest of the day. Korkor's laughing at my strike-4D-also-not-so-accurate incident.Gosh, not asif I want it this way right? I mean, that's really suay lah huh. And its not one but three? I'm having a phobia for dinosaurs. Gimme a break. And pple, stop mentioning that 6letter name infront of me and stop asking me bout her or use her as an example in yer situations. The feeling sucks lah okay? dang.

i miss my soon-to-be girl. :D

gotta go home now, my baby girl's waiting//

hmm, let me give you guys an insight bout what I've been mugging for the past two hours.

Trigonometry

General Solution

sin x, x = 180n+(-1)^n.a
cos x, x = 360n +- a
tan x, x = 180n + a

R formula

acosx + bsinx = Rcos(x-a)
acosx - bsinx = Rcos(x+a)
asinx + bcosx = Rsin(x+a)
asinx - bcosx = Rsin(x-a)

Factor Formula

2sinAcosB = sin(A+B) + sin(A-B)
2cosAsinB = sin(A+B) - sin(A-B)
2cosAcosB = cos(A+B) + cos(A-B)
2sinAsinB = -[cos(A+B) - cos(A-B)]


Ahh, I have to like memorize all this, and of cos more. I'm so afraid that I might forget everything tomorrow. Gosh, I think I better hug my notes to bed. And yes, I miss you girl. Make sure you don't overwork yourself alright? We'll work hard together, and we'll get good grades together. -pinches yer nose-

//swept under the ruggg

I'm bored, but I think I should blog about something. I don't exactly know what it is, but I just feel like typing. I supposed to be mugging now, math C tomorrow. Done with Chemistry, GP and Chinese. Not really confident but, at least I tried.

Hmm, life's good. I love my Michelle, Jasmine, and those ah-bu-neh-neh friends. They can be smelly but real cute sometimes too. Ahahs! I'm not so racist. :D

Alrighties. Gotta go and mug now. Still, I can't help but start planning for things I wanna do during d hols! Heehee, gotta meet up with my harnies and partyyyy!

Becas you said so.

Looking for someone else
Trying to find someone new
But I can't help it
I still feel love for you

No one could pick up the pieces
When we fell apart
But I can't hide it
You're still in my heart

Slowly letting go
It's way too hard
Seeing you happy and with other girls
Leaves me scarred

I want to forget you
But I know I won't
I want to hold your hand
But the word echoes, "don't"

Slowly drifting
Away from you
But thoughts always turn
To how my love was true

You're slowly going away now
Seeing you less and less
Getting back on my feet
And outta this mess

Hearing your name
And thoughts of your voice
I see your smile
And my eyes get moist

Finally I can say
You're outta my mind
As things turn out
Love made me blind

Time to move on
I will forget you, it's fate
So I go and do it
I went to get a date

But nothing measures up to you
I think of you all day
I say you're outta my mind
But you will always stay

I want you to know
That we are fate
Just remember
For you, I will always wait

I wish I knew what I am doing right now.

Inexplicable pain eats my heart,
We are breaking further and further apart.

Your presence elevates my agony,
Her presence alleviates my misery.

Distorted distressed depressed,
Wrenched screwed ruined.

Pining for your impossible return,
Agony of mind haunts me each and every night.

Exhausted by grief and despair,
Worn out by pain and mutterings of your name.

Drowned myself within memories I've left,
Frowned and set you free.

i will be okay...