I find myself just filling my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I'm doing fine and I'm plannin' to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have something to say

You're the one mistake I really didn't mind.

I can't stay on your life support, there's a shortage in the switch.
I can't stay on your morphine, cause it's making me itch.
I said I tried to call the nurse(Korkor) again, but she's being a little bitch.
I think I'll get out of here.

HAHA.




I'm just lazy to upload pictures from my MMC, will do it soon though. The Carnival was great. Had so much fun with chocolates and marshmellows but I had more fun scaring the bonkers out of Michelle in the 3 haunted houses we went and finally ending up with a sore throat myself. Oh yes, it's definitely worth the pain. Should have recorded her hysterical movements. Classic.



That bitter taste of perfume on your skin.

I went to the place where we first met. Things aren't the same anymore. People changed, but the environment remained what it was like 3 years ago.


I talked about what it was like before we got together, before I knew you could even mean this much to me. I was aloof, and looking back at those times, I was so much happier as a person.


To learn to prioritise things in my life, this is what I've learn today. I've also learnt that you shouldn't chat over the phone till too late in the night because you will go to school really restless the next day just to fall asleep during lecture and giving your lecturer a good chance to whack you on your head with a random person's pencil case. (I think he had gold bars hidden inside because my head hurts now.)


Whatever I do, is for the best now.


And all I've left of you, is just myself.

been too strong for too long.
i'll be waiting up until you come home.

LALALALALALALALALA.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.


crazy.

Life has so much more than just being with the one you love, H says. And she included that fact that I'm actually nothing but a spare. Harsh like Harn, but these are all cold hard facts I'll have to come face to face with eventually. Harn, I wish you were here to knock some sense into me. H, shove me with all your i-feel-so-happy-with-my-life theories. Mf, I'm sorry. But thanks for being here. Will learn to not be a sucker whenever it comes to her. Will learn to pick up the pieces. Will learn to let go. Will learn to move on.




And that's all I've left about you.

Bid me your last goodbye.

Euphe say, "don't fight against fate."

I say, "let death take the pain."



Love me before I wither away.

Actually, I'm hurting inside.

Happy birthday to myself.

Grey Western Lawn.
YES THIS IS THE ONE THAT I WANT!

Sports Meet was fun.

Seeing Per was fun.

Winning Discus was fun.

Meeting S was fun.

Eating LJS with her was fun.

Talking to R and friend was fun.

Going up and down Far East twice was fun.

Mocking people was fun.

Taking bus home was fun.

Sitting under the pavillion with her was fun.

What happened after that wasn't fun.

Walking her home was fun.

Taking a cab home without realising that Korkor can actually send me home WASN'T FUN AT ALL LAH.

But all in all, today was fun.

Apart from you, a crumpler and/or something new to wear will also make it a good birthday (:

I guess the logic is pretty simple. I'll be okay as long as you keep your feet off my tail. I don't like it when people lay on my nerves ever so comfortably unless you think you're special like Stacey which I think is totally self-delusional.



On a less angsty but more depressing note, I think things are deteriorating. You've problems that I can't solve and maybe even feelings that I can't comprehend. But I love you, nonetheless. You better exploit my care and concern. Like what I've said, I can do more than just catching airborne M&Ms and teaching people how to use pregnancy kits. (:



OH DID I BLOG THAT I (Stiff) SAW TI LIK?

Actually I wanna see my Pilot Shaker ambassador more ):



The next time we shall have dinner at Lao Er, Stacey's new diner. I wonder when is Lao San opening.

I'll be there when the world stops turning, I'll be there when the storm is through. In the end I wanna be standing at the beginning with you.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

ZHEN CONG MINGGG.

Pure love and suspicion cannot dwell together: at the door where the latter enters, the former makes its exit.


~Alexandre Dumas (1802-1870)

never.

I hope I'm tough enough to accept that 1/50 of you.

FAIL.

Friendster stinks because I can't send Korkor her ugly photos so I shall just post them here and let people laugh at her. HAHA. And I shall digress a little bit.



She was in this pose for a good 15secs so that Stacey could snap her.



SHE KNEW THAT WE WERE TAKING PHOTOS OF HER LOR.



Actually the focus should be on the ice cream instead.



And I wasn't paying attention.



Okay now I am (:

Thank you both my wonderful honeykins for accompanying me to get my crash from Aldo. Seriously Kor, can't you just spell it right for once. TSK!

A conversation with korkor.
Names changed to ensure our safety. (LOL)



J- says:
everyone can be damn unique


#15; says:
so why you say ### is fickle minded.


J- says:
huh


#15; says:
she's being honest.


J- says:
i m saying *** LOR


#15; says:
she admitted to me that she still loves @@@.


J- says:
i nv said tt ### is shan bian?


#15; says:
it hurts, but i appreciate her honesty


#15; says:
IS YOU SAY ONE LOR


#15; says:
WE WERE TALKING ABOUT ###.


J- says:
i said ***


J- says:
izit


#15; says:
ma de.


J- says:
i was toking bout ***


#15; says:
......................


#15; says:
now then we realise


J- says:
haaa


#15; says:
i paste then you say she SHAN BIAN


J- says:
haaaaa


#15; says:
SEEE


J- says:
luff die


J- says:
my bad la!


#15; says:
MEANS YOU WERE SAYING ***?


J- says:
ya


#15; says:
gosh i feel like an idiot.


#15; says:
we are both idiots.

Time to not be discreet! (YAY!)


Errrr...

Ehhh...

Urmmms...

Hmmm...


I don't know how? I think I'm more used to blogging discreetly since that was what I've been doing all along.


I love my gorgeous S.
Shhhh, don't tell nobody. (wah so discreet, I wonder if anyone will understand.)



Strut it, do your thang.

I don't think my worries are just my over-sensitivity.

maybe it is.

You should never exceed your talk time by 800 minutes because your dad is going to make you babysit at some doctor's place which is really gorgeous and amazing but also friggin' hard to find the psychotic killer who's calling you every now and then and wants your blood all over him. Did i just summarise the movie When a Stranger Calls? HAHA. No storyline. The plot doesn't link. BUT I WAS SCARED (and the lead actress is pretty)(and the maid wasn't). We shall catch something else more comical the next time round alright R, J, S? (sorry I just HAD to blog korkor's style. HAHA.)

And why did 2 out of 4 have the strength to blog even after a long day and getting home at 3am? IDIOTS. I distinctly remembered that I fell asleep like a youknowwhat the very moment I hung the call with her. EEEYER. You both don't so scandalous leh. HAHAHA. R is going to slap me :D Oh yes, I'm still waiting for you to ask me about J's code. HEEHEE.

And it just keeps getting better.

No more names for me to mock. HAHA. But I found out something scandalous about Agent J and youknowwho. Apparently you mean something to her. Well, at least that's what I concluded from her actions towards you. THIS IS SO INTERESTING. KEEP ME UPDATED KOR.


Yesterday was about going home on time like how we've planned, feeling really mixed up as I slowly made my way to the bus stop, you finding and crying over my letters, myself crying over them too as you read them to me over the phone, doing what I've to do and saying what I've to say.


Today is about waking up with a smile on my face, taking really long to text you, changing sEAts in class, surviving the longest day of the week, planning the date with you tomorrow and waiting for your call/text.


Tomorrow is going to be about doing my best to make you proud at the Discus and Shot Put Finals, meeting you early before you leave for work, waiting for you to finish work, drawing silly pictures as I wait for you to come down, taking the ride home on the bus with you with our fingers interlocked and spending time at our favorite secret hideout (where the cleaners are too lazy to clean).


I'm having a sudden craving for fish fillet.


Fan me and I'll taste you.

I'm just 20 steps away.

I'll be your dy/dx when x=0. (I'll see how you work this out.)


I wanted to blog about how breathtaking you were, but the dearth of words made me realize that the overwhelming emotion we both shared that night is simply indescribable. That very moment when you looked into my eyes (you saw yourself looking like a insane woman), you've proven to me that every single step I've taken to be right where I was then is justified. It is as though I've been made for that moment, and hell, I never wanna lose that feeling.


Now I believe Taufik Batisah. -nods convincingly


I think that parents should give their children pleasant names so in case when they grow up and they want to run for the government or parliament positions, they won't be mocked at by always-on-the-mock-mode people like yours truly. I seriously doubt his parents' sanity when they gave him a name that could make him an ambassador for Pilot Shakers. I used to think that those emcees whose hands shake like f**k are the best candidates for that position, now I've second thoughts after seeing the election posters for a particular party. Okay, we shall not mention which; I don't fancy a bad record. I won't be able to have scandalous affairs with my love if I'm locked up for mocking MP runners. BUT IT'S FUNNY. ZHUO MOR!


And no, you shouldn't leap into the pool if you are not very lean. You and I both know what are the effects. Certainly you won't be this malevolent to deprive a child of a chance to swim. Lets give the distorted Nokia ring tone a miss, else I'll start convulsing in laughter again.


Oooh, hot stuff!


You know, I seriously think that no one knows what I'm blogging about? Heh, well, as long as she knows (:



My pressure on your hips,
sink in my finger tips.
Into every inch of you,
cos I know that's what you want me to do.