I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over I would trade,
give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken

What do you do when you can no longer want what you want?
When the love is still there but things no longer feel the same?


you stay, because she makes you cry.

You left without fixing us,
now I don't know how to carry on.

A week has crawled by leaving me with 6 papers left. I'm not even half way through this ordeal yet stress has already managed to rip away a large portion of my sanity and health.

I'm battling flu and the tight exams schedules at the same time and they are all starting to take a painful toil on me. Hours have been spent with futile attempts to get information into my head. Packets and packets of tissue paper armed as ammunition to deal with my flu. My desk is officially a tissue graveyard.

I'm blessed with the luxury of time today to get a couple of things back on track and to deal with issues that I haven't had the time to deal with. But after today, it's back to the books and getting this over and done with.

Apologies have been given for feelings neglected. I hope my inability to be there for you now doesn't make me any less eligible for your love.

You used to laugh out loud, but you can't remember when.

A levels is kicking start with General Paper tomorrow and ending 15 days later with Chemistry Paper 1 (MCQ). I know I should not be thinking of ways to spend my disgustingly-long holidays when my examination has not even started yet, but the images of freedom, late nights out, dimsum (HUIWEN YOU BETTER GO. 70 BUCKS OKAY), KTV, chalets and spending time with the significant other is making me grin from ear to ear.

Unfortunately, lazy ass and I didn't make it to the dentist's due to misunderstandings (her claim) and laziness (my claim). But I've (actually it's mom) already called to book an appointment and the earliest date is more than 2 weeks (which is less than 3 weeks) away. And that means I've to tolerate the pain and abstain from my favourite dishes and snacks till a month later. Darn it.

Gf has been extremely generous with her love lately and the little little things she does and say, are actually the things that brighten up my day. Needless to say, I'm the happiest girl around, basking in her showers of love.

myfavouritewoman. (: